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I could stare at you all day long, for as long as i live

For some reason i feel like blogging today, because there’s a lot, a lot of things going around now and i thought i have to find some way or something just to express my crappy feelings now because i just.. don’t feel alright.

Everything just happened. Nah it’s nothing bad really but i really don’t know why i’m sad and down so. Hard to say. And it felt really private. Or maybe it’s just me? How should i describe this. I just wanna throw some stuff. Not the throw into dustbin type, but that one throw that could probably earned you a trip to hospital. 

I’m not even sure of my feelings. Mad? Sad? Frustrated? Okay? Content? Thankful? Despite all these happening, i thought i’ll be able to get it over somehow. Somehow i think that i only have to go through this whatever shit and as long as i don’t die, means i’ll be OK. 

I’ll be OK, i guess. Yes, i’ll be okay, i just need to assure myself that.

Ah all this thinking stinks. I don’t even like to think.

FUCK

A couple of times i told myself that i wanted an excitement in my life, a thrill, something fun, a turning point.

Perhaps you may think that i’m influenced by all the dramas i’m watching nowadays. They are of exciting scenes and undoubtedly, FUN 

Maybe it’s just me, i’m just a girl with many, many dreams :3 Tetapi tidak dapat melaksanakannya.

Besides, don’t you think life is a bit too dull right now? All you do is studying all day long, worrying about your achievements, onlining and do this do that. What about something new? Something that you can totally enjoy and you know, express yourself :D

Just a thought, i’m sane kekeke

BACK TO DULL LIFE.

As the year is coming to an end, plenty of things run through my mind today, recalling how the year was like. All i can say is.

WOW.

I’ve been a student since i was 5. Add everything together and.. i’ve been studying for 14 years :O Survived through National Service. Was hella crazy and.. i don’t wanna think about it. Lived in jungle. Touch BUGS. Have bugs sticking on me. Went to pub. Had the worse report card marks of my entire life. Ate quite a lot this year. Realized that i don’t really like kids after all. And how i didn’t go for active sports this year, as compared to how i was in lower forms. Want a puppy more than ever. Lost my voice twice, well almost. Tried and see many, many new things this year. Actually, the year seems like a self-development year. Not so fun, but memorable indeed.

To sum it up, 2010 is not a smooth-going-year, as more bad things happened compared to the good ones. I’m not gonna predict how it will be next year, no.

UPDATED. I’m happy :D

It’s Malaysia’s 53rd Independence Day!

Eventhough it’s really quiet here in the state, i’m not sure about the Country itself, i just thought today as a day that i’m thankful for. I cannot imagine how it really felt if i was born during the World War days but i certainly know that, War is a scary thing! Just last week, Thailand had this kidnapping case? Correct me if i’m wrong, the tourists that went there are being killed by this group of pengganas. Some got shot in the head, others died on the way to hospital. Even hearing the news seems scary, what more Thailand is just above us.

Sometimes i just thought, luckily Malaysia have no big issues like this. Things are still, can say, controlled :D

Let’s take this time to appreciate what the leaders and pahlawan-pahlawan had done for us, back then :D

MERDEKA!

“1 Malaysia, Menjana Transformasi”